hopeless romantic

when?

2012-01-13T17:01:00.004+07:00

When will I see you again?
You left with no goodbye, not a single word was said,
No final kiss to seal any seams,
I had no idea of the state we were in,

I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness,
And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head,

But don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

When was the last time you thought of me?
Or have you completely erased me from your memory?
I often think about where I went wrong,
The more I do, the less I know,

But I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness,
And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head,

But don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

Gave you the space so you could breathe,
I kept my distance so you would be free,
And hope that you find the missing piece,
To bring you back to me,

Why don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

When will I see you again?

2012-01-07T23:35:00.001+07:00

Hi everyone who reads my blog whenever and wherever,

Aku cuma pengen bilang terima kasih sama Allah, karena udah ngasih aku apa yang aku butuhin, which is friends. I genuinly couldn't do anything without them. So, I would like to say a few words to people who pick me up when I'm down and reminding me if I'm too high, lately.

First of all, I would like to thank Ayu and Dyah, temen dari kelas X yang selalu setia dan gak capek sama sekali dengerin cerita gue yang monoton, but you never gave up on me, always there for me, keep telling me to smile and giving me advices. Thank you so much for everything that you both have done to me. Maybe a simple "thank you" wouldn't be enough, but it means so much to me. Thank you guys, I love you, both of you. :)

Second, Fafa. Thanks fa udah mau dengerin curhatan gue, rela nemenin gue sampe pagi supaya gue gak sedih lagi, selalu ngebangun gue kalo gue bener-bener lagi down, selalu ngingetin gue kalo gue udah menyimpang, thanks banget fa, it means a lot to me.

And the third, Nada, Nurul, Nandito, and Timur. Thanks for cheering me up and the words, terima kasih udah selalu ngingetin buat sabar, ya, terimakasih banyak ya kalian. I love you guys.

Those people like always there for me when I need them, when I've talked to them, I feel relieved. Even though sometimes I don't understand what they're saying, or they don't understand what i'm saying, but they always there for me. I'm so thankful I have people like them. Maybe, this post is not enough to appriciate everything what you guys have done to me, but every single word I typed, I mean it.

Thank you guys, thank you for being there for me. I love you. :)

Leaving 2011

2012-01-01T16:36:00.001+07:00

Welcoming 2012

2011-12-30T00:06:00.001+07:00

Gak nyetel lagu metal kalo lagi dijalan, harus Jason Mraz atau Cash Cash,
Gak deket-deket sama yg ngerokok, whoever they are,
Selalu nemenin makan, walaupun lo gak makan,
Pin gue kalo pending, marah-marah sendiri,
Harus satu paket, lo, gue, adek lo, dan temen-temen lo, tapi setelah bbrp lama kita berdua aja,
Koi for lunch, abis nonton, pesenan lo pasti seafood ataugak mix,
Details in The Fabric, soundtrack kita pas lagi berantem di mobil arah pulang dari PL,
Late night chat, ngomong udah gak diayak, ngelantur semua,
Jakjam, NeverShoutNever-I See Star-We The Kings, konser pertama,
Ngambek, kalo ngebahas cowok lain, meskipun cowok itu kakak-kakak an gue,
Jutek, kalo gue cuek,
Dan masih banyak lagi dan gue gabisa mikir karena terlalu mikirin muka lo yang ngangenin itu, suara lo yang sumbang-ngangenin itu, perlakuan lo yang bersih banget dalam urusan kebersihan dan kesehatan,
Gue kangen lo, dan semua tentang lo, bahkan gue kangen ngeliat kata "Faaaa" di bbm, gue kangen setiap huruf yang lo kirim ke bbm gue, walaupun cuma titik (.), gue kangen.

Gue, masih sayang banget, sama lo.

):-(

2011-12-27T14:58:00.001+07:00

Now waking up is hard to do, and sleeping is impossible too, everything is reminding me of you, what can I do?

awnaw

2011-12-23T21:51:00.000+07:00

tau seneng? seneng adalah ketika lo pengen banget choker dan forever 21 lagi sale abis-abisan. tau bete? ketika forever 21 gabisa shipping ke Indonesia. sucks nuff.

day 10

2011-12-21T01:35:00.000+07:00

day 4

2011-12-15T23:00:00.003+07:00

Boy it's been all this time
And I can't get you off my mind
And nobody knows it but me

I stare at your photograph
Still sleep in the shirt you left
And nobody knows it but me

Everyday I wipe my tears away
So many nights I've prayed for you to say

I should've been chasing you
I should've been trying to prove
That you were all that mattered to me
I should've said all the things that I kept inside of me
And maybe I could've made you believe
That what we had was all we'd ever need...

day 1

2011-12-12T12:25:00.002+07:00

if you ask me how i'm doing, i would say i'm doing just fine
i would lie and say that you're not on my mind
but i go out, and i sit down at a table set for two
and finally i'm forced to face the truth
no matter what i say, i'm,
not over you.

what am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you?

2011-12-01T12:20:00.003+07:00

intermezzo

2011-10-22T23:51:00.000+07:00

I just changed my blog's title, I don't know why it came up "hopeless romantic" maybe I played too much The Sims 3, it's addicting like druggggs

"because oh because, i've fallen quite hard over you.."

2011-10-22T23:46:00.000+07:00

If I didn't know you I'd rather not know
If I couldn't have you I'd rather be alone

cocodicocoda

2011-10-21T17:44:00.000+07:00

hola amigo, like seriously i don't know what to type and i'm bored like hell ok this is so not important so gbye see u when i see u

SIXTEEN

2011-09-27T22:38:00.002+07:00

I'm officially 16 years old today!!! i'm so happy and i guess this was the best birthday ever!! i got surprised from my family and my friends and i'm so extreeeeeeeeeeeemely haaaaaaaaaaaaaappyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!! here's some picture from the surprises.

midnight surprise by my sister&brother. my mom&dad didn't joined bcs they had flu, GWS mom, dad <3

here are the cupcakes and also the candles :9

it's a bday sign from my sister!! <3

and then i got surprised from my old classmates x-a!!! my hands are shaking when i hold the paper, it was very touching :') thank you xapiens <3<3<3 (sorry for the blurry pict btw)

and this is the present from x-a!! another birthday sign, love it too much!!

it's me and (a half) of xapiens :):):) (btw ayu just got her hair cut!!!)

and last but not least, having a bday feast at pizza hut tis with (half of) xapiens. :)

i can't tell them how much i love them, just, thank you for everything!! and also thank you to alrino for the voicenote :ppp me likeyyy :D

27th of sept is almost over, and can't stop thanking for today ya Allah, i just had a blast :'D and that's it for today's post, once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ME!!!! <:-D

whoop whooop!!!!

2011-09-26T19:25:00.001+07:00

i'll be turning sixteen in a couple of hours!! so excited!! *$'o'*$ *\('o')/* (/*'o')/* hope everything will be wonderful :DD

:'

2011-09-22T21:56:00.003+07:00

what happen next, al?

If you ignore me, I will ignore you. If you don't start the conversation, we wont talk. If you don't put in the effort, why should I?

2011-09-16T18:30:00.001+07:00

September!!!!!

2011-09-01T01:51:00.002+07:00

Omgosh people I'll be 16 in the next 26 days!!!! Don't forget to mark your calendar kayyyy ;-D oh n btw.. These are my wishlist for my birthday..
First, pengen banget nanti semuanya ngucapin...although gak secara langsung, bbm gpp kokk nanti gue ksh tau pinnya :ppp
Second, aku mau surprise doooong :$ apalagi kalo di suprise-in sama ino :$
Third, aku mau video..ulangtahun :$ aku mau video isinya ucapan selamat ulangtahun :$ PENGEN BANGEEEEEEET huhu bikinin yahhh temen-temen yg baca :p (srsly, orang2 aja gak ada yg tau blog lo rif...) Oke sebentar lg gue akan umumin blog gue apa namanya HAHA gadeng
Fourth, aku mau bunga :$ siapa aja yang ngasih gapapa kok asal aku dikasih bunga :$ bunganya mawar putih tapi :$
Fifth, last but not least, I want all of my lovely people around me when I'm turning 16.. it would be the most wonderful day, I hope so.. Hihi

well, that's it. I'm going to bed right now, it almost 2 am in the morning and I haven't sleep yet!!! Ok then, good bye August and hello, September :-)

20

2011-08-23T00:52:00.004+07:00

#1
"i wanna run through the halls of my high school, i wanna scream at the top of my lungs! I just found out there's no such thing as the real world, just a lie you got to rise above."

#2
"..tentu saja kita pernah mengalami perbedaan.."

#3
"cause in your eyes i'd like to stay.."

#4
"too much pressure and i'm nervous."

#5
"music is all i need."

#6
"i understand that there are some problems and I am not too blind to know, all the pain you kept inside you even though you might not show. if I can apologize for being wrong, then it’s just a shame on me. i’ll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me."

#7
"life is a maze and love is a riddle."

#8
"you're original, cannot be replaced."

#9
"when you're dreaming with a broken heart, the waking up is the hardest part."

#10
"I hate being on my own, and everyone can see that I really fell and I'm going through hell, thinking about you with somebody else."

#11
"for a chance to be with you i'd gladly risk it all."

#12
"why do you have to be so cute? it's impossible to ignore you."

#13
"when we were in love oh things were better than they are."

#14
"my God, amazing how we got this far, it's like were chasing all those stars, who's driving shiny big black cars."

#15
"and when they push you down you got to get back up."

#16
"aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan, terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa. aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti, lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka hari ini.."

#17
"as soon as forever is through, i'll be over you.."

#18
"i'm gonna wanna hold you in my arms when you cry, if that's ok with you.."

#19
"they say that I'm a fool for loving you deeply, loving you secretly."

#20
"it is so easy to see dysfunction between you and me, we must free up these tired souls before the sadness kills us both. i tried and tried to let you know, i love you but i'm letting go. it may not last but i don't know, just don't know.
if you don't know, then you can't care, and you show up, but you're not there, but i'm waiting, and you want to, still afraid that i will desert you.
Everyday, with every worthless word we get more far away, the distance between us makes it so hard to stay but nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe, it hurts but it may be the only way"

"that feeling when.."

2011-08-22T23:30:00.000+07:00

you miss someone you love.
you know something that you don't have to know.
you can't hold your tears.
you know something isn't right.
you loose someone that important to you.
your mother doesn't like your boyfriend anymore.
your mind tells something that your heart hate.
your heart control your mind.
you didn't invited to your elementary school reunion.
you can do nothing but cry.
your heart isn't as fit as your body.
nothing fits you.
everything that your mom said is absolutely true.
you're sleepy but you're afraid to miss a thing.
all you can do is hold your cellphone.
you're not a part of someone's life anymore.
you're no longer considered.
you're closest friend hide something from you.
you're no longer trusted.
you can do nothing but cry.

bukber x-a!!

2011-08-20T12:47:00.002+07:00

HI!
biasanya gue ngepost hal-hal gak penting galau gajelas gitu, sekarang engga!! :p kemarin hari jumat, gue dan teman-teman X-A 2013 mengadakan buka bersama di rumahkuu ♥ walaupun gak semuanya dateng, tapi seruuu bangetttt!

jadi pertama itu, setelah pulang sekolah semua pada ngumpun di ipa d dulu, ada rame tuh awalnya bilang pada bisa, eh tiba-tiba ada yang gak bisa </3 lalu abis solat jum'at baru deh berangkat, nah pas mau berangkat kita split gitu soalnya ada banyak yang mau nonton Kung Fu Panda 2 dulu di metropole, akhirnya gue Ayu dan Dyah duluan untuk pulang ke rumah.. nah sampe rumah itu kita langsung leha-leha gak jelas gitu karena diluar itu panas banget. setelah itu kita nunggu yang lain dateng, eh tiba-tiba dydy mau balik!! emang gak solid nih anak satu malah mau pacaran.. -_- abis nganterin dydy nyari bajaj buat ke kfc cempaka putih, gue dan Ayu balik ke rumah dan tinggal gue berdua, tanpa disadari kita berdua..............ok skip langsung ke acaranya.
dirumah udah ada semuanya, udah ada gue ayu tiara arsy ratih anis ira dinda boboy dany panda ojan bangprib ipat thita dan pacarnya thita (angger) lalu tiba-tiba adzan! lalu semua pada makan deeeh, pokoknya intinya kemaren seru bangeettt walaupun banyak yg balik duluan tapi arsy ayu dany dan caca (yang tiba2 menyusul jam stgh 9) itu pada baru balik jam 10 gara2 ngegossip dulu wkwk ♥♥♥ pokoknya seru banget!!!!

and here some pictures from last night (from my camera)

shilau broh +_+

"cintaku dihalangi tembok"

eksperimen pake iPad-nya iPat

wkwkwk boboy!!!

pada sibuk photobooth -_-

and last but not least, (half of) X-A!!!♥

2011-08-01T00:05:00.000+07:00

so many songs that describe how i feel right now.. like i said before, too many things to deal with. wish i could handle it by myself. :'|

1

2011-07-31T23:43:00.000+07:00

wish you read this. i love you.

Ramadhan is ahead!!

2011-07-31T23:39:00.001+07:00

Semuanya!! Udah lama banget gak ngeblog.. Ohiya btw besok sahur pertama di tahun 2011!! Mohon maaf lahir bathin ya apabila isi blog ini gak penting :3 catch y'all lateeerr

2011-06-20T23:46:00.002+07:00

Alrino M. Muharram, can't feel anything but love. I love you, although there's so many things to deal with...

Asdfghjkl

2011-06-20T23:44:00.000+07:00

This feeling begin with letter S.
Sedih.

Ya, gue sedih and I have no idea what makes me like this. Terlalu baanyak pikiran, berasa udah tua aja gue... Huff. Jangan2 gue kualat lg sering ngatain kakak ica cpt tua ckckck Nauzubillahmindzalik.. -_-
Sebenernya sih ini sedih masih karena hari sabtu kemarin, memang kadang kata2 yg menyakitkan susah dilupain #:-s Skrg gue lg bbman sama ino dan pending. Super annoying bgt bbm malem2 begini, mana gak ada acara bagus di tv.. Sabar aja deh. Mungkin sekarang enaknya tidur kali ya, tidur dulu deh yaaaaaaaaa daaaah!!!!!

shud i give up or shud i just keep chasin pavements, even if it leaaads nowhereeee

2011-06-20T01:12:00.000+07:00

~

2011-06-20T01:06:00.000+07:00

How, how could we go wrong?
It was so good and now it's gone
And I pray at night that our paths soon will cross
And what we had isn't lost
'cause you're always right here in my thoughts

hi.

2011-06-19T23:13:00.000+07:00

hi long time no blogging, struggling dulu lah ya.. btw skrg udah bulan Juni, beberapa hari yg lalu ino ulangtahun ke 17 loh! happy bday ya sayang!!! best wishes always :) dan jg kmrn fira adiknya zara ulangtahun, happy bday juga ya fir! :)
sebenernya ini buka blog mau menggalaukan diri, cumaa.. gatau apa yang mau ditulis jd berfikir dulu hahaha, ok bye see u in a minute ho ho

2011-05-11T18:47:00.002+07:00

What have I done, wish I could run, away from this ship going under..
Just trying to help, hurt everyone else, now I feel the weight of the world is on my shoulders..

What can you do when your good isn't good enough, and all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things, I just wanna fix it somehow..
But how many times will it take? Oh, how many times will it take for me, to get it right?
To get it right..?

Can I start again, with my faith shaken? Cause I can't go back and undo this..
I just have to stay and face my mistakes, but if I get stronger and wiser I'll get through this..

What can you do when your good isn't good enough, and all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things, I just wanna fix it somehow..But how many times will it take? Oh, how many times will it take for me, to get it right?
To get it right..?

So I throw up my fist, throw a punch in the air and accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah I'll send out a wish, yeah I'll send up a prayer and finally someone will see how much I care..

What can you do when your good isn't good enough, and all that you touch tumbles down?
Oh my best intentions keep making a mess of things, just wanna fix it somehow..
But how many times will it take? Oh, how many times will it take?
To get it right? To get it right..?

A great song of glee's original song.

May.

2011-05-01T22:16:00.000+07:00

Mau istighfar dulu. Astagfirullah, Astaghfirullah, Astaghfirullah.

Ya Allah tolong aku, BM banget gue akhir2 ini!!! Bisa bokek lama-lama (emang udah bokek dari kapan tau) huhu banyak bgt yg mau dibeli tolooooooong D: Dari pengen instax mini, kuteks baru, behel (gak kuat dicengin kakak mulu T_T) case iPod baru, HEADSET!!!! Gila apa gue??? Duit Aja gak punya tapi banyak maunya haduuuuh tolong aku huhuhu, trs pengen juga ulangtahun di rayain HELLO duit darimana?!?!?! Coba kalo gue pup keluarnya uang, makan mulu gue tiap hari huhuhu tolong aku kenapa banyak maunya!!!!! *galau* huhu yaudah deh ya kawan, cuma mau curhat, btw skrg udah bulan mei loh hahaha udah ya bye!! Ohiya gue jg abis ganti username Twitter jadi @Arifa07 hahahaha udah ah dadaaaaaah!!!!!

*Kangen ino T__T*

Alhamdulillah

2011-04-25T19:39:00.000+07:00

i've just spent my holiday at United of Emirate Arab, lebih tepatnya umrah.
Alhamdulillah udah sadar. on my way to Allah's way. bye!

whoa

2011-04-13T20:43:00.001+07:00

i can't wait for my birthday.
27th september, mark ur calendar.

2011-04-01T13:43:00.001+07:00

Thunderous

:-P

2011-04-01T13:29:00.000+07:00

1. how old are you?
15
2. are you single?
no
3. at what age do you think you'll get married?
25
4. do you think you'll marrying the person you are with now?
maybe, i hope so c:
5. if not, who do you want to marry?
italian, maybe :p
6. who will be your bridesmaid & bestman?
my sister & my bestfriend
7. do you want a garden/beach or traditional wedding?
garden will be great, i think *wink*
8. where do you plan to go on honeymoon?
obviously France!!
9. how many guests do you think you'll invite?
i don't care as long as my lovely friends & family come <3
10. will that include your exes?
never think about it :/
11. how many layers of cake do you want?
i want a 7 layer cake!!! with blue icing :9
12. when do you want to get married, morning or evening?
morning ;)
13. name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding..?
Freelance Hellraiser's Want You To Know will be romantic i guess
14. do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon&fork?knife?
fine dining ;)
15. champagne or red wine?
never think about it, too :/
16. honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
7 days after
17. money or household items?
both :p
18. how many kids would you like to have?
2! a boy and a girl c:
19. will you record your honeymoon in DVD/CD?
of course!
20. whose wedding plan would you like to know next?
al's (so curios about it :p)

1st april.

2011-04-01T12:20:00.001+07:00

hi all!
i've been struggling with exam this week, hope the score will be good and no remedial for this mid term exam. amin.
time flies, it's already 1st april. my favorite month until now, hopefully onwards :)

and guess what? 6 days to go? yep. anyone's anniversary :p

GFW!!

2011-03-22T21:53:00.000+07:00

hi there! it's me again c:
u know what? i'm writing this post while i'm doin my biology assignment loh.. ;;) yaa boleh lah ya being nerd at a time :p that biology assignment (which is making 90 questions + answers and i've done it for 40 which means that 50 to go..hhfftt) kinda makes me feel like, i've gotta get my good scores at mid term exam so i can cover all of my previously bad scores.. ok gotta go now, gotta finish it before thursday!! gbye :D

GFW! GFW!

kaching!

2011-03-19T20:22:00.002+07:00

i need money $$

.

2011-03-19T20:10:00.000+07:00

i wonder what will it be when you read my blog and my tumblr...
i hope for changes.

2011-03-14T20:25:00.002+07:00

tell me more about you.
it seems like you're seeing me like i just met you. </3

i want to die while you love me.

2011-03-14T20:13:00.002+07:00

I want to die while you love me,
While yet you hold me fair,
While Laughter lies upon my lips
And lights are in my hair.
I want to die while you love me
And bear to that still bed
Your kisses turbulent, unspent
To warm me when I’m dead.

I want to die while you love me;
Oh, who would care to live
Till love has nothing more to ask
And nothing more to give?

I want to die while you love me,
And never, never see
The glory of this perfect day
Grow dim, or cease to be!

i love you everyday.

2011-03-14T20:12:00.001+07:00

Man In The Mirror

2011-03-07T20:14:00.003+07:00

RULES:

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.

4. Tag 25 friends.

5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.

6. Have Fun

SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?

Hot n Cold - Katy Perry -_-

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF:

Finally - Fergie (apabae..)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?

I Gotta Feeling - BEP

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?

Love The Way You Lie (ft. Eminem) - Rihanna

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?

4 In The Morning - Gwen Stefani

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?

p.s. (I'm Still Not Over You) - Rihanna (asli gak nyambung)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?

KKEB - Andre Hehanusa :$

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?

No Air (ft. Chris Brown) - Jordin Sparks

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?

All I Have To Give - Backstreet Boys

WHAT IS 2 + 2?

Gravity - John Mayer (LOL!!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?

I Want It All - HSM Cast (yeay me!!)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?

Fall For You - Secondhand Serenade (knp harus ini...T-T)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?

Dream - Asthenia (yakali gue jadi mimpi..ogah amat)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

The Best Thing About Me Is You (ft. Joss Stone) - Ricky Martin :$

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?

Airplanes (ft. Hayley Williams) - B.o.B (mayan..)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?

Me Love - Sean Kingston (EPIC FAILED)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?

Misery - Maroon 5

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?

Marry Me - Train (SO NOT TRUE!!!)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?

Party In The USA - Miley Cyrus (tau aja ah :$)

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?

EVERYTHING - M2M (OBVIOUSLY)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?

Gives You Hell - The All American Rejects

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?

Man In The Mirror - Michael Jackson

Tag to: Everyone who reads my blog! :P

huahaha mayan mayaan.. ngopy dr blognya si Dindi nih hihi udah dulu ah ini alay bgt wkwk bye!

X-A!! c:

2011-03-06T13:30:00.001+07:00

hi hari ini gue akan ngepost ttg orang2 yg deket sm gw kalo dikelas. alphabetical kay ;)

1. Akbar Deyaharsya
dia ketua kelas dikelas gue, sbnrnya tampangnya agak susah dipercaya..wkwk canda! dan dia dipanggil "boboy" entah alasannya apa, dia bisa banget mainin ekspresi mukanya, kalo abis ketawa bisa lgsg serius. dia ngekos di dkt rel kereta manggarai bersama dany (x-a juga) tapi sering bgt telat :'o dan dia digilai oleh naba.

ini boboy!

ini aku sama boboy c:

2. Anis Puspita Utami

dia adalah fans beratnya devin oliver, sama kayak aku!!! <3 tapi intinya dia ngefans berat sama bule-bule. ada bule ganteng lewat aja lgsg heri (heboh sendiri). di ipod touchnya aja isinya footballer sm devin.. dan dia org terselo. wkwk

anis & saras (tmn smpnya)

anis bersama tmn2 smpnya dan ada bule di ujung kiri atas...sodaranya vania sih wkwk

3. Anissa Rachmayanti

salah satu orang jenius dikelas. dipanggil caca. saking jeniusnya, suka gak jelas sendiri T-T teman gak jelasnya itu adalah si arsy, sama-sama pinter dan gak jelas. dia sering dibilang anaknya bu cut sama sering dipanggil cacacing -_- random. dia gak pernah remed dan itu broke my heart </3 D":

caca&astrid

4. Arsy Indrafatina

ini nih temen gak jelasnya caca, dia juga penggemar berat bule!! kmn2 cari bule, apa-apa bule, sampe cara ngmg b.inggrisnya kayak bule.. wkwk, pinter juga!! sama sama pinter sama caca, terus dia terkenal dgn rambut keritingnya yg indah......wkwkwk cnd! dan fyi dia suka bgt ngmg "cutie pie.." wkwkkwk

arsy!! wkwkw

5. Belladina Maulani Y.

ini nih sih "eh" wkwk teman seperjuangan gue kl disency wkwk, KURUS BGT.. trs kalo makan LAMA..wkwkw udh kayak makan daging alot tauga mending, ini alot gak alot makannya lama bgt jir wakakak sering dibilang cacingan gara2 materi biologi skrg ttg cacing wkwk jirr.. trs kalo ngmg suka terengah-engah wkwk suka ngelawak gajelas pula..wkwkw

bella!

6. Chyntia Monica

ini mah gausah dijelasin lagi ya..wkwk tmn seperjuangan dr sd :'D rumahnya sering gue tumpangin buat nunggu dijemput wkwkwk

moncee wkwk

7. Dany Andhara Asmarakusuma

DANYYYYYYYYY!! the coolest boy in da claaasss wkwk pujaannya dinda wkwk cowok ini item tapi sering bilang kalo kulitnya kuning langsat :" rambut ga berubah dr smp (menurut boboy) dia baik banget :" tapi suka jayus :" trs kalo ketawa tuh gmn ya ekspresinya, gitu deh aneh kyk orang gak ketawa.. dia ngekos brg boboy tp ga pernah telat :"D wkwk homoannya panda, ipat, boboy dan dito.. :" dia pemain baseball loh! radjawali apa kalo gasalah nama clubnya

itu boboy, dany sama jacky.

aku sama dany!!! whoa~ wkwk

8. Dinda Agithawuri Widyakinanti

kembaranku :"D not physically. tapi kadang kita punya banyak kemiripan, dr mulai kesukaan nyokap sampe makanan! skrg ini gue sm dia lg ngidam seafood mau makan bareng gak kesampean mulu gara2 sibuk uhuhu, pacar2annya dany nih wkwk dia demen banget manggil gue "ipul" dan gue demen banget manggil dia "dindi", kita kadang senasib loh..selalu senasib deng!

dinda!!<3

me wiff dindi!

9. Haruka Ayu Suhita

mia chairmate!! wkwk dia orang jepang ori loh..ahahah ibunya deng yg orang jepang -_- kita suka berbagi suka duka bersama wkwk sering banget gue curhatin ttg ino..bosen kaliya dia wkwk, teman yang suka nemenin aku jajan :3 wkwk geli, dan kadang..dia itu..suka lesbi..sama gue!!! jijik banget gak sih menurut L?? wkwk sering bgt dibilang kuli karena dia berotot..

HAHALOLWKWKFUFU (autotextnya caca) ini kocak loh demideh

10. Kirana Widiastuti

gila ini masterpiece disegala mata pelajaran, kalo ada apa-apa minta ajarinnya ke dia, pinter banget chong!! (intermezzo, masa si ading ngebm nomernya ino yg baru!! tete ngpn di bm T-T) trs dia pernah wkt itu ngmg gini kan ada yg nanya "dany mana yaa.." trs dia ngmg "dany lagi buang sampah, mungkin dia kebuang juga bersama sampahnya" HUAAKAKAKAKAK plis ira... -_-

ini dindi sama iraa..

11. Muhammad Pandito Pratama

orang terngeselin sedunia. galaxy tabnya sering gue pinjem, sering ngasih gue pulsa wkwk tapi ngeselin no matter what!! dan gue gapunya fotonya dan blm temenan di fb wkwk next time yah ;)

12. Nabila

ini nih, ini nih.. wkwk naba! si arab, tapi penampilan tidak sesuai sama kelakuan wkwk dia demen bgt ke bta kalo pulang sekolah, trs dia ngefans bgt sama boboy apa apa boboy. suka bawa dvd ke sekolah wkwk trs apalagi ya.. sering ngelawak juga kalo dikelas wkwk

naba, panda, dan dany!

13. Nitho Alif Ibadurrahman

NITHOOOOOOOOOU wkwkwk dia mbahnya komputer kelas wkwk dia hi-tech bgt.. kalo ada apa apa tinggal panggil NITHOOOOOOOOOOOOU pasti lgsg bener wkwk selain pinter komputer, dia pinter pelajaran juga!! wkwk lengkap deeh terus ya... JAMNYA CANGGIH BANGET jadi dia suka pake jam dan ternyata jam itu adalah hp!!!! ada kameranya!! touch screen pula!!! gila canggih banget coy!! bisa buat nelfon sms dll o.o wkwkwkw

BUKTI KALO JAMNYA BISA BUAT NELFON WAKAKAK kurang canggih apa?!

14. Patri(ci)a Putra Pratama

wkwkwk knp gue nulisnya gitu? soalnya di surat hasil psikotes dia disitu namanya bukan patria putra pratama tapi... PATRICIA wkwkwkwkwk jir skrg dipanggil patsy!!! kalian tau dia gak sih? dia tuh artis, runner up nya afi junior tahun brp gitu, dia juga hostnya laptop si unyil!! ipat!! tau kan?? wkwkw dia tuh udh bulet (O) behelan, cadel pula! wkwk trs dia sering telat tauga wkwk jir.. wkwk

foto dia semasa di afi junior.....wakakak!!!! :DDDDD

dia org jawa asli loh.

15. Rifandia Pradipta

ini panda. dia suka di marahin sama bu eri tapi bu erinya abis marahin ketawa wkwk tp sayangnya dia..........gajadi deh hee

ini gj parah

16. Shani Qisthina

orang aceh nih!! ati-ati kalo sm dia wkwk dia suka teriak2 gak jelas gitu! parah gajelasnya wkwk trs dia jg suka ketawa lebay gitu padahal ga ada yg lucuuu hadeh -_- trs dia anak pk loh...atut >.< trs apalagi ya? ohiya masa waktu itu kuku jempol kakinya copot!! itu jijik bgt dan di share ke group yuckkk trs dia jg sering galau kl dikelas...wkwk

ini shani sm boboy!

hahahah sebenernya ini smua blm sama lawakan-lawakan dr masing-masing makhluk yg ada diatas wkwk tapi lain kali aja ceritanya. tau ga? rasanya pgn naik kelas tapi gamau pisah sama X-A, udah pewe bangeeet.. <3 knp baru pewenya pas udh akhir2 gini hufft sedih jadinya. yaudah deh drpd sedih berkelanjutan mending ngetumblr! wkwk adios!

check my tumblr, you'll learn everything you've missed.

2011-03-06T01:31:00.001+07:00

i miss my boy so much while i'm feeling guilty right now.

2011-03-06T00:29:00.000+07:00

late night post.

2011-03-06T00:26:00.000+07:00

i hate it when i'm ready to bed, then random thoughts come to my mind and easily bother me. f.
and bcs of that, tonight ended up by turn on the laptop and start blogging.
the clock strikes at 00.03 am right now, and my eyes haven't tired yet. padahal tadi udah tidur dimobil while i'm on my way home from plaza indonesia and from now on i'm not going to pi anymore. ever.
today is already sunday which is tomorrow is monday and tomorrow i got civics exam, and i'm so not ready, too lazy to read those thick books.. i wonder if i had a genius brain so i don't have to study anymore *sigh* ok stop complaining..
what i'm doing right now is tweeting, typed this, and see what's on my timeline. my boyf's phone is broken, i don't know where to contact him tomorrow bcs he's going to jjf and doing some project. and i really want to meet up with him like right now, today, really right now. i need someone to chat, while right now BBM's just an application "bikin yang jauh jd deket, yang deket jd jauh." which is what i mean is my junior high school friends. how i miss them like A lot.
yesterday afternoon, i went to marsya's early dinner bday party at sushi-ya and most who came are friends from sma 8, dunno why i don't feel comfort.. and then i felt like i'm a stranger invited by one and only your friends, the other's just like laughed at someone, and when i came i just said "hi" to denisa (which is on of my jhs friend) and marsya. then when i saw an empty chair between denisa and cantya (my high school friend), i asked cantya if there's someone sitting there then when she said no one i immediately sat there, then i felt better.. and about a half hour later one of my best friends from elementary to junior high school came, named kania. and i was like "asik ada kania! ada temen!", dunno why..
i don't get along with my high school friends, they're too individualistic, i hate it, they only think about themselves, that's what i hate about high school. i need my old friends back, immediately. i miss them so much.
now i have no idea what i'm gonna do after i finished this post, i really want to sleep but my eyes wont close. hahhhh.. everything's funny right now.
night everyone..

Another sleepless day..

2011-03-02T20:29:00.002+07:00

Hi, I'm sleepy.. :O
quote untuk hari ini : "I hate fat, fat is my enemy. I'm fat, I've been sleeping with my enemy." -@jokoanwar

hari ini.
ada satu yang membuat gue berharap, yaitu.. bokap mengizinkan gue untuk merapihkan gigi gue ini :'D semoga secepatnya ya Allah, amin..
yang kedua adalah, tolong mudahkan aku untuk mengerti matematika, fisika, dan kimia ya Allah.. mau masuk IPS tapi IPAnya juga mau bagus T_T
yang ketiga adalah.. kenapa hasil psikotes seperti itu? jangan berikan aku harapan palsu wahai PT *eni **bar.. rekomendasi jurusan Ilmu Hubungan Internasional? amin ya Allah, amin ya Allah, amin.
yang keempat adalah.. hari ini udah makan 3 kali dan tiga-tiganya AYAM... ya Allah
yang kelima adalah, Alhamdulillah hari ini enak.. tapi kenapa bu nisa tega T_T
yang keenam adalah gue kangen deh sama nandito dan fafa. random.
dan yang terakhir adalah.. jauhkanlah aku dari makanan-makanan yang dewa itu..

AKU MAU KURUS DAN TINGGI....

hmm

2011-02-28T20:43:00.001+07:00

"run baby run, don't ever look back, they'll tear us apart if you give them a chance." We The Kings

but...
how I miss my past..

Sepenggal lawakan di pagi hari.

2011-02-27T17:00:00.001+07:00

Sunday, 27th February 2011

12.36 pm
ino : Ada fotonya gaak?
Me : buka aja twitternya @diomamen
12.55 pm
ino : Oohh gituuu
ino : Eh kamu udah solat magrib belum?
Me : ..............
Me : Hari ini kamu ada di belahan dunia sebelah mana?

Sunday

2011-02-27T16:53:00.001+07:00

Hai blogwalkers.. Such a gloomy day.
Tadi pagi denger kabar, salah satu temennya kak Alifa meninggal, namanya kak Ratasha Amangku.
Sempet tau sih, tapi gak kenal. Lately, so many people die in such a young age.. Hope they're in heaven right now. :-)

Awal 2011 udah gini, gimana kedepannya? Berdoa ajalah, semua ada ditangan Allah SWT. Dan semua rencana-Nya pasti yg terbaik untuk kita semua. Amiiiiin.

Btw whatcha doin y'all? Bosen bgt gueh.. Nothing to do, bapak baru pulang dr Solo bawa banyak oleh-oleh!! *\(^.^)/* Dari mulai Ayam Goreng Bu Tini, sampe cemilan-cemilan apalah itu namanya gak ngerti wkwk yg penting banyak makanan :p tp skrg dirumah sepi banget pada tidur.. ~.~ kecuali gue yg sibuk berkutik dengan iPod nulis-nulis ginian hehehehehehe tapi gapapa dong yg penting tadi udah cuci piring banyak wehehehe gue blm mandi loh, nanti aja kalo mau pergi wkwk. Oh iya nanti malem Insya Allah mau ke Hotel Mulia (caasik..-_-) mau ke pernikahannya anaknya temennya bapak wayolo ribet -_- ya intinya gitu deh. Duh bosennya.... Udah dulu dehya mandi aaaaaah... :p daaah..!!

:)

2011-02-26T21:46:00.001+07:00

hanya ingin menyapa para blogwalkers.. :p
btw abis ganti-ganti font dan warna layout blognya, suka deh sm font-nya hihi
udah dulu ya, bye!!! (iseng banget gak sih gue)

can we just go back to the time when we used to understands each other?

2011-02-26T21:31:00.001+07:00

2011-02-26T21:28:00.003+07:00

...

2011-02-26T21:20:00.003+07:00

we don't talk like we used to..

& i miss that..

c:

2011-02-15T22:15:00.000+07:00

heyy bloggie :)
just want to share sum stories, me after spendin my time wiff my rinoo <3333 we doin sum silly things after watched The Fighters, such a good movie :) then i still mad bcos when we drank sum coffees he was busy playin w my ipod!! so i played w his phone and write sum words at his memopad, and then he was curious what im doin w his phone and then he begged for clue then i gave him a clue wha was that and then he read it and laughed so hard, returned my ipod and asked for apologize -,- so i turn back my face, and then he was like followin my face so he can see my face c: i actually kinda happy when he did that bcos it was so rareee!! when he asked me for apologize i was like i dont want to forgive him and he was like holdin my hand so hard and it was so cuteeee fuuh if i could repeat that moment and then when i said to him that i dont want to bring my ipod again when sumtimes i meet him he said "enak aja dibawa dong supaya nanti kamu inget kalo misalnya ipod itu waktu itu bikin kamu dicuekin sm aku hehehehe" he such a cutir boyy hihi but i still miss him :c wish we could have a lot of time together but guess what? i think next tuesday will be a great day bcos we're gonna see nsn,i see star,and we the kings concert together!!whooopla cant waiiit ;D me love you muchhh rinooo ({})
ok thats it fo today, see ya l8r! smooch :*

2011-02-14T21:42:00.002+07:00

siapa sih yang suka dibohongin? gak ada kan? yaudah.

Selamat jalan, Arsya :)

2011-02-13T19:58:00.001+07:00

Telah berpulang ke Rahmatullah,

kakak kami, saudara kami, adik kami, teman kami, sahabat kami,

Arsya Pratama bin Yusuf Raharto

13-01-1997 - 12-02-2011

Selamat jalan, sya.

Sya, selamat jalan ya.

Gue berdoa, semoga lo diterima di sisi Allah SWT.

Allah tau yang terbaik buat ciptaannya, dan lo pasti salah satu dari yang terbaik.

Doa kita semua hanya untuk lo sya, seorang Arsya Pratama.

Gue gak sempet minta maaf sama lo, maafin gue ya sya..

Maafin gue kalo selama ini terlalu over, tapi lo tetap di hati kita :)

Lo tetep menjadi cokiber gue, Tania, Chikita, sama Pute.

Semua tentang lo gak bakal kita lupain, karena lo gak pantes untuk dilupain.

Ipat udah bikin lagu buat lo, pasti lo udah denger disana.

Nah, kalo yg ini dari gue, tapi bukan buatan gue sih-_-hehe

Ini gue ambil dari lagunya Plus One, judulnya Here In My Heart.

Tapi gue revisi dikit..hehe

Wherever you are tonight boy
We'll see you in our dreams
Wherever we go tomorrow
You'll be here next to us

And though we are a world apart
We know you'll never be that far

'Cause here in our heart
There's a picture of us
Together forever
Unfaded and unbroken
Wherever you are
Your love covers us
Forever more, you'll be
Here in our heart..

Arsya Pratama

13-01-1997 - 12-02-2011

We love you, sya.

19th of May 2010

2011-01-16T23:03:00.004+07:00

Kiki (bass), Bagas(drums), Sesa(guitar), Talitha(mommy), Tyo(vocals&keys), and Adam(guitar). The Clockie Family.

They're one of the most influence band in 115 in the sophomore, entah kenapa setelah mereka membuat band banyak sekali orang-orang yg ingin berkarya seperti mereka. 2 of them udah jadi artis beneran! :P Bagas & Sesa juga anggota band namanya "Lost Kids". I'm sure you've heard of it. Dan cewek yg bergaun putih itu, mamanya mereka! a.k.a their manager, the cheerful manager :)

BEST TEACHER EVER. except the green one h3h3h3 apologize mrs :P

from left to right itu, Pak Margono (olahraga), Bu Ida (BK), Pak Yuwana (musik), dan Bu Dahrulia (PLKJ). kenapa gue sebel sama bu Dahrul...? Karena PLKJ-nya remed, pasti soal remednya essay!! Hehehe maaf bu :D

The Sweetest Couple, Ardhi & Sarbul.

mereka ini pasangan, lucu banget. cowok nya baik&jaim, ceweknya agak kejam dan....sedikit gak tau malu. namanya juga Ardhi & Sarbul. Saling melengkapi laaah.. Hihi :p

GIRLSSS! Monic, Yesmine, & Anya.

One of most popular & beautiful girls, kinda miss them like Very Much. Monic skrg sekelas sm gue di 8...-_-, Yesmine skrg di SMA 3, dan Anya di SMA 70. Take care girlllls :*

THUNDEROUSSSSS! My super-extraordinary-class.

MISS THEM LIKE TOO MUCH!! huoooh kangen banget sama kelas ini!! full of surprises everyday, monday feels like friday to me when im with them, kangen banget2an sama bayolannya raga..kangen sama ke-annoying-annya bagas yg skrg sombong bgt pdhl satu skolah..kangen ke-soktahuan & kepintarannya nadia L dan kejayusannya nadels, fira, & kania. Kangen keluguan dan kepanikannya danty si sebangkuku, kangen kecantikkan dan kegalakannya si laras babyblue, kangen ngeliat dhirza&naila pacaran, kangen ngeliat harry di manja-manja talitha, kangen keimutannnya talitha, kangen minjem ipodnya echa yg cuman untuk nonton tv show korea, kangen keeksisannya ayu putri -_- kangen rubiks man&woman si esqa dan ines, kangen keluguan nya surur juga, kangen ngeliat wahyu sm tanto sm rehan tiap hari ditindas dikelas, kangen ngeliat arifa hijriani di cengin mulu, kangen liat kelemotannya kania dan nadila, kangen ngeliat kebaikannya karimah, saskia, dan ardhi, kangen ngeliat emir sama rifky ketawa2, kangen ngeliat tyo nyanyi sendirian pake headset kenceng-kenceng kayak apaan tau tp dia baik suka TP-in pulsa, kangen ke-suneo-annya denry, kangen suara gitarnya irfan, kangen kenyolotannya aldo juga yg skrg sekolah di tarnus, kangen ke-hi-tech-annya adit apalagi kalo lagi ngutakngatik laptop gue ini, kangen juga ngeliat depok main rollerblade di kls kalo abis solat jumat dan kadang suka di rekam pake handycam nya bagas terus sok-sokan fish eye pake kepalanya senter terus di selotipin di ujung kameranya -_- idiot banget, kangen yang lain juga yg ga disebut disini HUHUHU kangen 9.1 bangeeet pokoknya!! :'(

People!!!!!! Laras, Ifan, Sarah, Yesmine, Faras, Qbaw, Kalisha, Ines, Firaz, Deea, Raga, Bella, Dana, Me, Hasfari, and Monic.

miss them too, a lot lot lot lot, a huge huge huge huge, missing them. kangen!!banget!! tak tertahankan kangennya!!!

So that was one of prom's photos from my camera, I really miss that moment. I wish I could go back and repeat.. I miss you guys, really do and I mean it... Take care, and good luck guys. I love you all like I never loved anyone before.

i had no clue

2011-01-13T22:22:00.000+07:00

i really had no clue, which is why you want me back? tapi yaudah lah, Alhamdulillah bisa sama-sama lagi dan masih sama-sama lagi sekarang. Love you much, Alrino.. <3

already 2011

2011-01-13T21:57:00.000+07:00

happy new year 2011.
be good, be better.
kinda late tp gpp kan? hehe udah lama gak posting lagi dan baru sempet sekarang :'D kangen blog deh..huhu. skrg gue lg sendiri di rumah karena bokap masih di jalan pulang dan kakak gue kebetulan lembur dan ibu&abang gue lg di spore!! mrk liburan without me huuu pdhl pgn bgt tp mau gmn lagi T_T mata udah sepet banget daritadi mau tidur tapi nungguin bapak pulang ga dateng2, bbm sepi ino entah kmn, drtd ga terlalu ketawa nonton ovj skrg bingung mau ngapain!!! a a aa aa a aa aa aaa pgn tiduyyyy x_x
ok then just drop to say happy new year, like i said, be good, be better. haha goodnight ppl! :*

Lets Be Honest

2010-12-13T17:00:00.002+07:00

I’m not ignoring you.

We’re not in a fight.
I don’t hate you.
I’m disappointed at what you have become.
I sit here listening to our favorite music remembering the times you never cared.
I know you’re not busy.
I know you don’t like her.
But i don’t know why you let us grow apart.
There is something we called Friends Forever.
But i’m guessing forever for you doesn’t mean the same thing for me.
If you come up to me and say hi,
that you wanted to try again,
i would,
trust me,
i would,
but you have to do it first.
I’m sick of me doing everything first.
It goes both ways,
but all i want you to know,

is how much you hurt me.

(via http://supermac18.tumblr.com/)

VII

2010-12-07T23:28:00.002+07:00

well before i go to sleep i gotta some sort of things to say

1st of all, today is December 7th and happy 1st month getting back Al. Well i'm trying to expect less and give more. I love you each day.
2nd, i got my maroon 5 ticket and...excited but not too excited. dunno why.
3rd, Thailand got beaten by Indonesia 2-1 in AFF Suzuki Cup @ GBK. Congratulation my lovely country :)
last but not least, i still don't get it why this feelings always came when i look at their facebook.

ok, good night. especially you Alrino, I♥U.

The thing that I've been thinking lately.

2010-11-19T17:58:00.000+07:00

Friends.
I miss them like WOAHHHHHH
I wonder...things will be the same again. But yeah,
Things will never be the same again. AND I hate to admit that.
y oh y.

07-11-2010

2010-11-19T17:52:00.000+07:00

i'm gonna tell you about something.
i got back with him, yeah with my Al <3
well it's kinda late bcos i have no time to post, study study and study. *sigh*
and the best part of this is... i have my Russell againnnnn :D

well actually, i'm happy, over-happy. but..there's something stuck in my heart. i don't know what exactly is, but i hope this wont bother me. just pray for the best, for us.
let us start our new beginning.

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2010-10-26T01:29:00.000+07:00

i feel like, torn apart. it's like someone has ripped my heart out and torn them into million pieces. i feel miserable. that's what describe me now. knowing that he already found someone new it's like you just jump out from 8th floor to the ground. i'm not fully healed. still stuck in the past with memories. let me move on, let me get my normal life back. let me get my freedom. high school thing doesn't work out well, it's just the same. i wish i still a junior high school student with my lovely friends playing around the field, laughing, foolin' around, taking pictures, eat candy, hugging, dancing, and many more exciting things to do. i really miss my friends. this is killing me softly, i can't stop complaining, i can't stop arguing, i can't stop crying every sunday night!!! sunday night reminds me that tomorrow's monday and it's school day and i was like WHAT?! weekend is running soooo fast. i really need day-off without thinking about homework and broken heart. i need my day-off, i want to spend them with my entire friends, my whole family. it must be great. and because of this, because i always thinking about my day-off, i got a low score for my mid test. i got 23.33 for my math test. are you crazy or what????? from 16 subject that tested, i failed 12 subject. high school makes me the most stupid student in my class. i'm afraid i don't pass the 10th grade. and it makes me STRESSFUL. hahhhhhhhhh, i'm tired. i'm tired. i'm tireeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed!! goooooooosh why i can't stop complaining about this???????????? why?????? gah i really need someone new. i really need. i really need my spirits back. cmon rifa! you can do it! you can move on! cmon cmon! wish me luck!

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2010-10-02T15:58:00.000+07:00

Sadly true...

Don't ever changed guys, I love and miss you.

2010-10-02T15:51:00.000+07:00

Bring me here, please? Someone? UGH

Teenage Years

2010-10-02T15:49:00.000+07:00

Expectations
A big group of friends, sneaking out of the house, my first kiss, late nights under the stars, crying on my best friend's shoulder, passing notes in class, going on adventures, getting out of my town, campfires, telling secrets, feeling what it's like to fall in love for the first time, roadtrips, dance parties, driving around, getting lost, endless laughter, happiest years of my life.

Reality
Feeling lonely, staying in, late nights studying for that math test, waking up early, tiredness, school all day and homework all night, being stressed out, college applications, trapped in the town I hate, feeling nothing remotely close to love, keeping all bottled up, crying far too often, spending too much time on the internet, waiting for better years to come.

Well that's me, lately.

15.

2010-10-02T15:42:00.000+07:00

Happy 15th birthday to meee!
I'm turning fifteen 5 days ago, on Sept 27th. Same as Ghalda, Ricky, and Nadia L.
The thing that came up in my mind lately is I wish everything's getting better, more hard-working, pass the mid test with good result and without remedial, no more broken heart, no more tears, be mature, and find out who I am.
Well, this year's birthday is different. I miss last year. I really miss 2009, where I don't know exactly what is broken heart and never be a stressed-out student. Even if last year I have to study hard for the National Final Exam but I never be this stressed-out. So depressing :( I haven't find the happiness and the spirit. My mom said that I have to adapt to my new world which is HIGH SCHOOL WORLD. I wonder if high school has the same unforgettable memories as junior high school did.. Really miss it :'(
I spend this year's birthday with no one, everybody's busy. Everyone have their own business. Everyone have their own plan, so do I. Planning to spend my birthday with my family and my friend but unfortunately, my plan failed. My dad went to Bali this morning for some duty that he has to do and my friends can't because... I don't know exactly why they can't. Wordless.
Well once again happy 15th for me, good luck me.

Curahan Hati.

2010-09-26T12:25:00.000+07:00

Hai, high school sucks.
Pengen banget curhat disini.. Udah lama juga ga posting, hehe. Well the point is I really miss 2009 moments, 2009 seems perfect, dimana SMP tuh rasanya indah banget. Kenapa SMP mesti 3 tahun doang? Harusnya 6 tahun jadi biar SMA gak ada, biar temen-temennya sama. AAaaaAaaAAaaaaA. Sekarang sibuk banget sama buku-buku dan tugas dan ulangan. Dulu aja perasaan waktu SMP menjelang UN masih bisa santai, sekarang? Baru kelas 1 aja udah repot setengah mati :( Masih belum menemukan perasaan semangat untuk menjalani rutinitas, ditambah abis putus juga.. Ya Allah. Perasaan dulu kayaknya kalo hari minggu malem masih bisa tidur tengah malem sambil ketawa-ketiwi sama kakak skrg udah tidurnya cepet, bawaannya sedih.
Kata ibu ini masih dalam masa transisi, blm bisa beradaptasi, di 8 berat banget ya.. Gak di 8 juga sih, di semua SMA berat, cuman gak seberat di 8 :( pengen banget balik ke SMP!!! Aku gak suka tahun 2010, terlalu banyak rintangan!! Jengjeng apabae... Ya tapi bener :( Iri banget sama orang2 yg masih SMP, jangan sia-siain tuh masa SMP kalian, SMP tuh tempat dimana kalian membentuk pertemanan yg bener-bener pertemanan, jaman SD? Kalo udh musuhan, baikan, ntr musuhan lagi. I miss junior high school so damn much :((( Bukan gue doang kok yg kangen, SEMUANYA. Belum siap SMA.
Kata orang-orang yg udah lulus SMA sih, mereka bakal kangen masa-masa SMA. Katanya.. Ya semoga aja bener gitu ya, sama sama unforgettable. Sekarang bener-bener gabisa main-main. Kalo gak masuk sehari aja, you're dead. Gak dead juga sih, ya bakalan ketinggalan banyak, jauh kebelakang....-_- tp serius. Dan kata mereka (lagi) yang udah lulus, kelas 2 tuh saatnya main-main. I hope so... Mungkin gue kayak gini gara-gara dulu di SMP kebanyakan main-main ya, tapi emang kenyataannya begitu! Huhuhuuuuuu
Sekarang hari minggu, untung besok senin ga belajar tapi ESQ. Besok aku ulang tahun lho!! $'o'$ \('o')/ (/'o')/ bentar lagi mau 15 tahun uhummm beban nambah :) tapi aku harus dewasa, harus bisa menghadapi ini semua dengan lapang dada :) I wish everything gets better and I can be mature.
Ok that's it for today. Terimakasih ya yg udah mau baca, luv u guys :)

How sad..

2010-09-18T23:56:00.000+07:00

Just took survey on http://www.healmybrokenheart.com/assessment2, and here's the result..

We’ve tabulated your survey answers. Read your evaluation in full with recommendations below. You will also receive an extended analysis via email from me, Amelie Chance. It seems you fall into a category called “Emptiness”, a pretty high category of pain. I understand this is an extremely difficult time, but there is still hope for you to feel better – and soon. Below is your initial evaluation that I wanted to share with you. Below that, please find my recommendations for a path to start healing today.
1 – You are suffering from Emptiness. Your mind, body, and heart are basically saying to you, “Hey, what’s the point of any of this without him or her?” The reason it is so painful is that more than loneliness, you are feeling emptiness.
2 – You are experiencing the Reminder Syndrome. You may not be able to get your ex, the break, up and the pain out of your mind for more than a few minutes at a time. There are subconscious triggers of your ex everywhere including songs, smells, objects, and much more.
3 – Negative thoughts - you can’t seem to shake them. Why did this happen (again)? I’m never going to meet anyone. The thought of dating again makes me want to vomit. Don’t worry, you are not alone and there is a simple and powerful method to combat these thoughts.
4 – Loss of a possible soulmate. It seems that you believe that you have lost the person that was the one for you. The one you had been waiting for, the person that made you whole, that made you who you are and wanted to be. I want to tell you that even in this situation, it is possible to heal, to have hope, and to live a vibrant life again.
It sounds pretty bad, but of all the results from the survey, I relate most to the emptiness category. I can tell you there is hope to feel better. I was in this place a few years ago while running my business. I had lost my soulmate and thought my life was over. The story is pretty personal, but I know if you are feeling empty, no matter how impossible it seems, you can feel better and remarkable relief to your broken heart.
I fell to the floor clutching my chest – I couldn’t breathe. Unfortunately, that floor was in bathroom of the 100-person office where I was the owner & CEO.
I knew my broken heart had taken over my life…I mean what was I doing lying on the floor crying? My staff was counting on me and I felt like I was having an out of body experience. I was gasping for breath thinking it was a possible heart attack, but deep inside I knew the truth…

The love of my life, the center of my everyday exciting and mundane activities, the one who brought a thrill and calm like no other I had ever experienced had walked away. I was crushed. No, no, not crushed. That doesn’t begin to describe it. I was left a shell of my previous self…hollow inside. Empty.

This broken heart had taken over my emotions, stripped me of the meaning in my life. I wondered if anything I had worked towards actually mattered anymore. The house, the car, my friends, my hobbies, and honestly even my family seemed completely meaningless…without him. I didn’t see how I was going to get through it. So, as I lie there crumpled on the ground I did the only thing I knew how – I got up.

I got up and I decided it had been long enough. To be honest, the day of the bathroom incident, it had been 2 years since the break up, but the memory was still very fresh. I decided that I was going to search out the solution to healing a broken heart, because I didn’t buy that ‘time heals all wounds’. It certainly didn’t for me. In fact, it festered and grew like this blob of uncontrollable despair that had overtaken my life. I had hit rock bottom and I decided it was time to climb back up and be the person I knew I still was inside.

Here is the reality I discovered: No matter if you’ve broken up from a long marriage or if this was your first love, no matter how impossible it may seem – you can heal. No matter if you are 20 or 60, life can still go on and be not only meaningful, but better and brighter than before. And not because you ‘waited’ for time to heal, but because there is a way to heal your broken heart.

If you have a broken heart, we are bonded by a shared experience. I consider you a friend. Please listen to my story as a friend…
What I described above is a true story. I was co-owner of a very busy, very demanding technology business, and I was a disaster. I had lost the love of my life and time wasn’t healing my wounds. I decided to fight back. I researched to find a solution to my heartbreak. As I said, I saw therapists, I read self-help books, I watched videos, listened to audios, meditated, did yoga, and much more. I was mad to find the solution. You know how I felt after all that? A little better, but not much.
Then I stumbled upon Positive Psychology and everything changed. Positive Psychology – I know it sounds like mumbo-jumbo, but it’s a real science that studies the strengths that allow humans and cultures to flourish. Finally – a science that examines not what is wrong with us, but rather, what is right with us. Positive Psychology studies our strengths and provides practical ways to improve our lives. My study of Positive Psychology is what pushed me to quickly find my better, brighter future. In fact, I left technology, started writing, became a best-selling author, and I’m now very happily married to someone I truly adore.I never thought this was possible, but it is and I can show you how to heal too.
You will understand why this happened and how this will lead to a better, brighter future.
You will find out if you should be friends with your ex or not.
You will learn the real fixes to the pain of the loneliness.
You will discover the technique to stop obsessive behavior such as refreshing your email and checking your phone every 5 minutes for a text from my ex.
You will create a path to a new future that is better than the one I had originally imagined.
I know this sounds inconceivable. I found the path from lost love back to the fire of life once again.
Please listen to me. The reason I’m putting such a personal, private story out there is to let you know you are not alone. Telling you I was lying on a bathroom floor is not exactly me sharing a high point in my life with you; but I feel it is necessary. I have found a way to heal, and now it is my duty to share it with anyone else who has a broken heart. I’m sharing my techniques with you right here.
Here is the truth: Love isn’t what hurts. It’s losing love that’s excruciating.
Inside, you are torn apart:
· You feel as if you will never meet anyone else
· You are scared to death that you will grow old alone
· You are too frightened to ever open up your heart to love anyone else
· You don’t see a point in going on with your life
Your friends can say whatever they want to try to comfort you. And there love and attention is appreciated, but it’s like taking a low milligram aspirin for a migraine. It may ease the pain briefly, but the underlying problem is still there, gnawing at you. Listening to your friends might actually be making things worse. Your friends will help to perpetuate the three biggest myths about dealing with heartbreak. And they’ll keep repeating them, with good intentions, but crippling results.
Myth #1: “Time heals all wounds.”
Myth #2: “It has to get much worse before it gets better.”
Myth #3: “The best remedy is to date someone else.”
Fact 1: Time will heal you when you take real action. You must make a conscious effort to take the steps to get rid of the negative thoughts, alleviate anxiety, combat depression, and find happiness again. We show you how.
Fact 2: It can get better from Day 1 after your break up. That is a pretty bold statement, but it is true. There is no magic bullet, but there are powerful ways to change your perspective and readjust your internal pain centers.
Fact 3: There is a right time to starting dating again. Getting back into the dating game too soon can slow down your healing to a halt and even push you a few steps back. Get the right advice from the experts on when and how to find love again.

udahan ah..

Just can't stop remembering you,

2010-09-18T23:39:00.000+07:00

AaaaAAaaAaaAaaaAaAall the time.

Again.

2010-09-10T22:23:00.001+07:00

Kangen lo nih, gimana dong? I have no idea what to do.

Happy Eid Mubarrak O:)

2010-09-10T22:19:00.001+07:00

Assalamualaikum!
Hai semuanya, selamat lebaran ya! Minal aidin wal faidzin, mohon maaf lahir dan batin :)
Maaf ya semuanya kalo ada salah, mungkin salah ngomong salah berbuat salah apalah. Maafin gue ya :)
Selamat lebaran sekali lagi! Selamat makan ketupat! Selamat dapet THR banyak!
Taqoballahu Minnawaminkum O:)

Thank GOD.

2010-08-29T12:40:00.000+07:00

Well, I'm about to telling you about yesterday. Here it goes...

Jadi, kmrn itu gue di undang ke ulangtahunnya Rafi di FM cibubur. Jauh ya mainannya cibubur....hadeh. Terus, disana itu ada Rafi, Anggi, Nandito, Nilam, Nurul, Ghalda, Nada, Chacha, Dinda, Kafka, Ino, Ading, Edho, Fafa, Timur, Utta, Acul, Zara, dan Fira. Itu ramai ya, hahaha. Pertama-tama gue itu di jemput di rumah Rafi sama Nandito berserta Delon supir kesayangan kita semua. Setelah jemput gue, kita jemput Anggi, di, Bintaro. Cibubur-Rawamangun-Bintaro-Cibubur. Selama perjalanan ke Bintaro, gue Nand Rafi ketawa2 ga jelas ngomongin Ino yg sekarang mendadak jayus. Ok, skip this part....

After we arrived at Fm, disana udah ada Edho terus nyusul Ino, Ading, Timur, Zara, dan Fira. Terus dateng lagi Utta, Fafa, Acul. Ya ngobrol-ngobrol dikit lah ya, terus yak gue mati disana. Di cengin abis-abisan sama Utta si Utten ini huh. Terus di sapa sama Ino...ok. Setelah buka, Si geng rusuh a.k.a Nilam, Nurul, Ghalda, Nada, Chacha, Dinda dateng bawain kue buat Rafi. Skip this part, again...

Abis makan, kita muter2in fm terus ngobrol-ngobrol and we played TRUTH OR DARE. Dang. Utta menargetkan supaya botol coca-cola yg ada di iPhone-nya Acul mengarah ke Ino supaya Ino cerita apa yg telah terjadi 2 minggu yang lalu. Yup. The day we broke-up. At a moment I hate Utta so damn much. Gue ngerasa sedikit pathetic. Sedih, Utta, Ino berada di ujung dan kita2 jg di ujungnya. Ya pokoknya jauh deh. I can't hear what they said. Setelah lama, Kafka di panggil sama Utta, dan.....yap. Utta narik tangan gue, nyuruh gue ikutan. Oke, my heart beats so fastttttttt dang. Ino explained everything and I can't say anything. Cuma bisa bilang iya aja.

Setelah Ino ngejelasin semua, gue speechless. Bilang Utta jahat berkali-kali. Dan reflek, nangis di pundaknya Utta.Kata-kata yg gue inget dari Utta yg sampe sekarang masih terngiang-ngiang di otak gue adalah
Utta : "Sekarang gue tanya, omongan sama hati kuatan mana sih? Kuatan mana fa?"
Utta : "Kenapa lo yakin sama hal-hal yang gak mungkin buat lo? Semuanya mungkin fa."
Utta : "Lo nangis, kalo gt smuanya nangis yuk! Satu nangis, smua nangis. Satu ketawa, smua ketawa. Kalo lo gamau kita nangis, ketawa skrg."
Utta : "Janji sama gue, kalo lo mau nangisin dia, tangisin! Tangisin sekenceng2nya. Di depan temen2 lo! Jgn sendiri, jgn di depan kaca!
Utta : "Lo selama ini belum clear kan? Ino juga. Ino gamau ngejelasin, lo nunggu di jelasin. Lo gantung kan fa? Gantung kan?"
Utta : "Lo kalo mau nangis, jgn bbm. Telfon! Ada anggi, ada gue, ada timur, nandito. Jgn bbm. Gak ngaruh. Gak bakal lega."
Utta : "Kalo mau balikan, kenapa gak nyoba aja? Apa yg gak mungkin di dunia ini?"...
Hanya itu yg bisa gue inget karena gue sempet fainted karena pas buka gue gak makan dan gue nangis sekitar....setengah jam. Gue bangga dan gue seneng punya temen sepeduli Utta. Gue sempet di tanya, maunya apa sekarang. Gue jawab, gue mau balikan, gue mau peluk Ino. Dan setelah gue di bawa ke mobil, gue di tinggal berdua di mobil sama Ino. Di mobil Nandito. It was a long time ago gak duduk berdua di mobil itu. Bener2 gak tau mau ngomong apa. Dia selalu nanya kenapa, kenapa dan kenapa. Dan gue selalu jawab gapapa, gapapa, dan gapapa. Berkali-kali kata maaf gue ucapkan ke Ino sampe dia ngitungin dan itu sedikit menghibur gue. "Aku minta maaf juga ya, yg di sengaja maupun gak di sengaja. Mungkin aku kurang peka, gak sadar, egois atau apalah." he said. When I ask for a hug, he said "Ya boleh lah! Buat apa aku disini." This is kinda sad but I have to through it all. Udah janji sama Ino gak bakal sedih lagi, Ino juga, gak bakal galau lagi hahahaha. This is kinda happy ending u know.

Sekali lagi, terimakasih banyak kepada Sabeth Uttara. Dia yg ngenalin gue ke Ino, dia yg menyelesain masalah gue sm Ino. Makasih juga buat Ino, for hugging me three times hahaha. And of course, Thank God. I knew it will be like this... :")

Guten Nacht, Al.

2010-08-27T23:47:00.002+07:00

You can rest easy tonight
Everything is gonna be alright,
I promise
Go to sleep and dream of me tonight
Everything may not be perfect,
but at least we tried

So tonight

Sweet dreams and sleep tight
I've been trying so hard,
can't get you out of my mind
And if this is how it has to be,
just promise you won't forget me
And I'll leave you with this lullaby tonight

I know that this hurts you,
it hurts me too
I wish there was something I could do
to make it easier for you
Sometime it's tough, too soon to call it love but I wanted to
Yeah I wanted to, but it's too late now to say all the wonderful things that I thought of you

Lullaby, Chase Coy. Good night, sleep tight. Love you.

Nih.

2010-08-25T21:47:00.001+07:00

Kangen Alrino Monda Muharram. Nih. Gimana? Jelas kan?

Galau.

2010-08-25T21:44:00.000+07:00

Should've kissed you there
I should've held your face
I should've watched those eyes
Instead of run in place
I should've called you out
I should've said your name
I should've turned around
I should've looked again

But oh, I'm staring at the mess I made
I'm staring at the mess I made
I'm staring at the mess I made
As you turn, you take your heart and walk away

Should've held my ground
I could've been redeemed
For every second chance
That changed its mind on me
I should've spoken up
I should've proudly claimed
That oh my head's to blame
For all my heart's mistakes

But oh, I'm staring at the mess I made
I'm staring at the mess I made
I'm staring at the mess I made
As you turn, you take your heart and walk away

And it's you, and it's you
And it's you, and it's you
And it's falling down, as you walk away
And it's on me now, as you go

But oh, I'm staring at the mess I made
I'm staring at the mess I made
I'm staring at the mess I made
As you turn, you take your heart and walk away

And it's falling down, as you walk away
And it's on me now, as you go

But oh, I'm staring at the mess I made
I'm staring at the mess I made
I'm staring at the mess I made
As you turn, you take your heart and walk away

Parachute, The Mess I Made.

I can't sleep

2010-08-22T01:23:00.001+07:00

Y? Coz I miss you, jerk.

Why did I have to?

2010-08-21T23:40:00.001+07:00

Why did I have to miss you?
Why did I have to love you?
Why did I have to regret?
Why did I have to suffer like this?
Why did I have to meet you?
Why did I have to fall for you?
Why did I have to?

Again and Again.

2010-08-21T23:34:00.003+07:00

Hey Girl, I'm sad
I heard that you were leaving
You can't go, you're my best friend
I'm sure gonna miss you

I always think about you
All the time you're on my mind
We played together you and I
I can't believe that its true
Now I have to see you leave
You're the only one for me

My girlfriend, my best friend
I don't wanna see you go
I just wanna let you know that
I have a crush on you
I can't wait no longer girl
To say what I feel

I'm gonna miss you forever
I'm gonna miss you girl
Gonna miss you girl
I'm gonna miss you forever
I'm gonna miss you girl
Gonna miss you girl

The first time that I saw you
I knew it from the very start
You had a place deep in my heart
I can't believe that it's true
Now it's time for you to leave
And Baby I just can't believe

My girlfriend, my best friend
I don't wanna see you go
I just wanna let you know that
I have a crush on you
I can't wait no longer girl
To say what I feel

I'm gonna miss you forever
I'm gonna miss you girl
Gonna miss you girl
I'm gonna miss you forever
I'm gonna miss you girl
Gonna miss you girl

You and me together
Girl, I'll wait forever
It's only the matter of time
'Coz I never wanna see you go
I just wanna let you know
That I can't wait no longer girl
To say what I feel

I'm gonna miss you forever
I'm gonna miss you girl
Gonna miss you girl
I'm gonna miss you forever
I'm gonna miss you girl
Gonna miss you girl
I'm gonna miss
Gonna miss you...

I'm Gonna Miss - Aaron Carter
i'm gonna miss you forever.

Quick Update

2010-08-20T20:33:00.002+07:00

Follow ma Twittah @Arifffa and my Tumblah http://arifarizky.tumblr.com. Merci.

Y oh Y

2010-08-20T19:49:00.002+07:00

I just realized I've miss you, until I don't know what to write.

Crexation, my healer.

2010-08-20T19:28:00.003+07:00

I can't tell them how much I miss them.

I love you guys, till world separated us.

Lucky to have them by my side.

2010-08-16T23:04:00.002+07:00

Guten Abend.
So here we are, time to tell about Friends. Seven words with thousand meaning.

First of all, they are my closest friends. I'm so lucky to have them by my side. Share stories each other, laugh at each others, lots love. (Alphabetical)

Anggi Februarizky, called Anggi.

Teman galau gue, ini orang udah kelas 12 loh di Labsky, tapi kita selalu dekat <3 unyu abis. Dan dia teman seperjuangan, sepergalauan, sama-sama menderita karena 1 cowok, dan dia teman curhat pokoknya! Dia suka sekali sama yg berbau korea korea, seperti Hongki (entah yg mana) yg menurut dia ganteng banget-bangetan. Yap, itulah Anggi. One of my closest friend :) (Twitter : @anggifbrzky)

Ghalda Amalia Marwan, called Ghalda.

Dia itu.....Ghalda. Yaiyalah -_- Dia itu kadang-kadang bisa di bilang.....memalukan. Kocak ini anak kadang-kadang. Sekarang kls 9 di SPI, Sekolah Pilar Indonesia (kalo ga salah). Dia sodaranya Nada (nanti di bawah) dan dia suka gila. She had a good sense of humor :D (Twitter : @ghalda)

Nada Nabila Nastha, called Nada.

Ini nih, sodaranya Ghalda yg gila-nya minta ampun, lesbiankuuuuu :*** GakDeng. Kita normal. Dia gila-nya... Astaga, kalo udah conference di BBM sama Anggi, udah deh. Bukannya ngebahas yg seharusnya dibahas malah.....gila-gilaan. Ini anak..aduh susah deh di deskripsikan (jangan geer nad..) sekarang kelas 8 di High Scope. Pokoknya ini sahabat LAVAQUE~ shit. Wkwkwk pokoknya, ini anak lucu parah. She had a good sense of humor too!! lol (Twitter : @nadstha)

Nandito Prabowo, called Nand.

Ini serem nih serem, dia bisa semua alat musik JIR. Gue kalah T^T Ini teman nebeng gua nih, DULU... Sekarang dia kls 8 di Al Falah. Sekarang dia lagi demen-demennya sama pulpen gajelas yg diputer-puter sampe pacarnya (Nilam) sebel... Pokoknya ini anak my best buddy deh! :D (Twitter : @nandoti)

Nilam Fausta Sanjung, called Nilam.

Ini anak pendiem banget. Tapi diam-diam menghanyutkan lho! Dia menjalin hubungan dengan bapaknya Nurul! :O Sekarang kelas 8 di Global.....Jaya apa Mandiri gitu lupa. Ini juga suka ngakak-ngakak sendiri kalo ngeliat bapak-bapak. Entah mengapa :o Tapi gue suka ngeliat mukanya... Imut gitu, kayak aq.....GakDeng. Dia pacarnya Nandito, udah 1 tahun berapa bulan gitu. Awet bangeddddh gila!! Ya intinya ini anak cantik. (Twitter : @nilamamam)

Nurul Aulia Sari, called Nurul/Nubul.

Kalo yg ini, ini paling kalem... Gak kayak yg lain HOHO cnd. Tapi serius, seperti apa kata blognya Nada, dia itu penurut parah.. Kalo udah di sms sama bapak/ibu nya disuruh pulang, yaudah pulang. Gile. Sekarang dia kls 8 di Al Falah, sama kayak Nandito. Dan anak ini juga kadang-kadang lebay, dia itu perantaraku :* wkwkwk, dan dia sekarang lagi kangen sama BBnya karena disita sm ibunya... Sabar ya Rul :p (Twitter : @nubulls)

Thirafi Herawan, called Rafi.

The big one bradahhh! Waka waka ee canda Rafi^^ Dia pacarnya Anggi nih, kayak angka 10 taugak! Anggi-nya 1, Rafi-nya 0, CANDAAAAAA. Dia sekarang kelas 11 di Al Falah sama kayak.........nvm. Ini anak baiknya keterlaluan. Sampe-sampe mau nganterin gue pulang dari SkyAve kemarin..huhu terharu :") terus ini suka ngocol kadang-kadang. Demennnnn banget ngata-ngatain gue. Hix... (Twitter : @thirafii)

Putra Timur Djarot, called Timur.

Kalo yg ini....ALAY. GakLAH. Ini gaul banget. Udah punya pacar, eaa... Wakawakaee, ini teman curhatku juga kalo lagi kangen sama si PUP. Dia kalo bales BBM agak-agak selenge'an gimana gitu......h3h3h3 canda murrrrr. Ini my best buddy juga nih! Sekarang kls 10 di SMA PB Sudirman (kalo ga salah), seangkatan sm gua neh wkwk. Ini ceking banget anak, twitternya pernah gue bajak HOHO dan dia juga baik sama aku uuuu :p (Twitter : @ptdtimur)

So there they are, my mood booster. And I'm thank God that have gave me them. Actually there's a lot I want to tell you about my closest friend but it's kinda late at night and I'm gonna go to bed because tomorrow I have to attend Flag Ceremony at school. Kinda lazy.... Ok, that's all for today. Guten Nacht! :)

Don't get me wrong......

2010-08-11T20:43:00.001+07:00

How to Let Go of Someone You Love

Accept your lack of control in the break up. No matter how “good”, smart, helpful, giving, or attractive you are, you can’t control whether other people want to stay in a relationship with you. There are other factors that lead people to leave…and the sooner you accept your lack of control, the easier it’ll be to let go of a love relationship.
Accept the role you played in your relationship. This may sound contradictory, but even though you are out of control in many ways, you were still part of the relationship. You are responsible for some part of the love relationship; you affected it somehow. There’s an intricate balance between being out of control in one sense (you can’t make someone stay in your life) and being an active participant in the way your relationship unfolded.
Talk about the break up. To survive a heartbreak, share your feelings – but don’t obsess, whine endlessly, or get mired in the past. Talk about your loss, but have a purpose. Figure out your role in the love relationship. Sort out your feelings, and learn how to do it better next time. To let go of someone you love, you need to work through your feelings of loss, disappointment, pain, anger, or frustration. This relationship advice helps prepare you for healthy new love!
Trust time to heal as you let go of someone you love. It really does get easier, my friend. Even as you feel the pain of the loss right now, know that one day you will be breathing easier and laughing easily. Time is the most effective way to heal the breakup of a love relationship.
Get professional help if you can’t handle the break up alone. Talking through your problems with an objective counselor, pastor, or psychologist can help you let go of someone you love by helping you recognize the big picture — especially if you’re scared or depressed. If you’re wondering what to do when he doesn’t love you anymore and feel lost and helpless, seek help. Support groups and strong, healthy girlfriends can also help you let go of a love relationship.
Accept that your loss may always hurt or confuse you. This relationship advice means that there are some things we never get over — but we don’t necessarily have to get over all the heartbreaks in order to live full, rewarding lives! It’s important to put the past behind you and move on, but that includes accepting that your losses, heartbreaks, setbacks, disappointments, and so on are part of who you are today. To let go of a love relationship, you have to accept your losses.
Start something new in your life. To let go of someone you love, open up a new chapter in your social, professional, personal, or spiritual life. Volunteer, take a solo vacation, join a new gym, take a night class, join a support group, check out a new social club, quit your job, find ways to take risks every day. Branching out in new directions after the end of a love relationship will make you stronger.
Remember both the good and the bad parts of the relationship. When you’ve lost someone you love, it’s easy to just focus on the great parts of your relationship and his or her personality. But, don’t forget the flaws in the love relationship! Remembering both what you loved and what you hated will help you overcome heartbreak. Be objective and well-rounded when you think of your love relationship.
Know you’re not alone. We’ve all been there — even the strongest of us have lost love relationships. Heartbreak feels like you can’t breathe, your life is over, you’ll never love again, and you’ll never laugh again. Letting go of someone you love is easier if you remember you’re not alone. Stay connected with your good friends, or take a bookworm’s advice and read books such as The Girls’ Guide to Surviving a Break-Up.
Accept the ups and downs of letting go of someone you love. Sometimes you think you’ll never get over the loss of your love relationship; other times, you feel fine and happy and good about your life. These ups and downs will even out over time, but you may always experience some days that are more painful than others. Birthdays, anniversaries, and holidays can be difficult even years after a breakup. Letting go of someone you love and thriving after a breakup isn’t necessarily a “linear” experience.

Don't get me wrong, I just want to move on and live my high school life that not-so-cool. Oh one more.

What to Do When He Says “I’m Not in Love With You Anymore”

Focus on yourself – not on him. For others to love and respect you, you have to love and respect yourself. To love and respect yourself, you may need to make practical, tangible changes in your life. Maybe that means losing a few pounds, going back to school, or spending more time with people you respect. Maybe it means getting up early to exercise or finding out about student loans. To help yourself let go of someone you love, write down your goals, and take specific action steps towards achieving them.
Give yourself – and him – space to heal and breathe. One of the most important things to do when he doesn’t love you anymore is to take a step back – though your instinct is to move closer! Find your self-identity. Figure out who you are apart from your marriage, relationship, kids, and relatives. Give yourself (and him) room to breathe.
Look at your relationship objectively. You’ve been invested in this relationship for years; now, you need to look at it objectively, with your mind and gut (not your heart). Is this the relationship you wanted for yourself, before you met him? Would you want your daughter, sister, or best friend to be in this relationship? Does your partner willingly meet your needs and respect your wishes? Do you do the same for him? If you had to do it all over again, ask yourself if you’d choose him again as your partner. That may help you look at your relationship and decide if you want to stay or leave.

GOODBYEEEE BROKEN HEARTTTTTTTTTT *sigh* Why it's so hard to let go of you..?

(Source: Google)

First Day of Fasting with 8 2013

2010-08-11T13:51:00.001+07:00

Halo...saya lapar. #abaikan.
Hari ini hari pertama puasa di tahun 2010 dan bersama 8 2013. Belum tau sih rasanya gimana karena masih libur, mungkin nanti pas hari jumat hehehe. Oh iya, mau ngepost beberapa foto gue bersama high school chicks nih....gadeng.

Ya hanya 3 foto aja yaa.. Hahaha jadi beginilah cewek-ceweknya. Gak semua, ini yang gue kenal aja. Ada jg yang ga ikut foto, ohiya ini taken dari kamera gue loh.....ok #abaikanlagi. Enough deh buat yg ini, follow my Twitter ya! (@Arifffa) Auf Wiedersehen :D

Happy Fasting! :D

2010-08-10T21:41:00.001+07:00

Hari ini udah tarawih, besok pagi sahur terus puasa deh! Mohon maaf lahir dan bathin ya dear readers! Semoga puasa kita bulan ini di terima Allah SWT. Amiiiiin. Selamat menunaikan ibadah puasa :D

Purpose

2010-08-10T21:30:00.001+07:00

Tujuan gue buat blog ini adalah....
Ya, untuk mengeluarkan feeling gue, mood gue, share moments that i've through, ya like people do when they make a blog. Dan satu lagi, buat nunjukin betapa masih sayangnya gue sm ino. Ya mgkn kalo emng gue udh lupa sm dia beberapa bulan lagi postnya bukan buat dia lagi kok. Janji. Jadi sebelum gue nge-spam, izinkan saya untuk spamming ttg ino or something that teenagers do when they fell in love or maybe broken heart. Thanks.
Buat lo yg di sana (eaaa-_-) hanya ingin mengucapkan sesuatu kok. Good Night, Selamat Malam, Buenas Noches, Guten Nacht, Bonne Nuit, or something. Intinya selamat malam no.

Hate this one.

2010-08-10T20:54:00.004+07:00

Can we repeat it???? PLEASE??? Why are you being such a jerk sih noo?? :''''(

How pathetic is this..

2010-08-10T20:47:00.002+07:00

Sekarang kerjaan gue setiap hari adalah :

Pretend like nothing happens
Starting to hate you, but it doesn't work
Realize that I still love you THIS BIG. Even bigger than that.
And wishing for the best.

See? This is so Pathetic. I'm stuck.....

2010-08-10T20:42:00.001+07:00

Blogging reminds me of you, why? Because you used to check if I posted something new. I miss you.

Reminisce

2010-08-10T20:40:00.002+07:00

I can feel her breath as she's sleeping next to me
Sharing pillows and cold feet
She can feel my heart
Fall asleep to it's beat
Under blankets and warm sheets
If only I could be in that bed again
If only it were me instead of him

Does he watch your favorite movies
Does he hold you when you cry
Does he let you tell him all your favorite parts
When you've seen it a million times
Does he to sing all your music
While you dance to purple rain
Does he do all these things like I used to

14 months and 7 days ago
Oh, I know you know how we felt about that night
Just your skin against the window
Oh, you took it slow
And we both know
It should have been me inside that car
It should have been me instead of him
In the dark

Does he watch your favorite movies
Does he hold you when you cry
Does he let you tell him all your favorite parts
When you've seen it a million times
Does he sing to all your music
While you dance to purple rain
Does he do all these things like I used to

I know love
(I'm a sucker for that feeling)
Happens all the Time, love
(I Always end up feeling cheated)
You're on my mind, love
(Oh, darling I know I'm not needed)
And that happens all the time, love

Will he love you like I loved you
Will he tell you everyday
Will he make you feel like you're invincible with every word he'll say
Can you promise me if this one's right
Don't throw it all away
Can you do all these things
Will you do all these things like we used to
Oh, like we used to

Like We Used To - A Rocket To The Moon

1st

2010-08-10T19:34:00.002+07:00

Well this is my first post, actually I'm not a newbie bcos I had a blog but I've delete it bcos some reason.. Well, Guten Abend :)